| | Temporarily. I was "exploring LiveJournal" as the site calls it, and I started to edit a picture of Damien Rice (the first picture going from the left) and then an earth-shattering thought came to me. What if I instead of stealing 100X100 size icons from various sites, I'd find pictures, resize and edit them myself, and make that the new layout? A different road than the one that took up minutes, hours, days of my time when I used to make layouts every weekend? What resulted last night was a frustrated, horrible mood at a failed attempt. I was so irritated I almost jumped of my skin. I realize this is usually what people say when they get scared, but that's what I felt like doing. I had forced myself into this world of meticulous details and sizes and characters and I wanted to get out. But this morning was a new day, and I finally made what you see at the top. It looks easy enough, but for me, it was the exact opposite. I lied in that I said what my layout would be in the previous entry, but it ended up being something else. I lied temporarily because I might change it sometime in the far off future and make the layout I had initially envisioned.
  
Enough rambling on that front; I'm afraid I just wasted however many seconds it took you to read that paragraph. Right now I want to make a list of the things I will miss about this house that I've lived in for most of the time I've lived in California, which is about twelve years. Of course we had the crappy house for rent when we first moved, but I don't need to go into that.
I'll miss:
-knowing exactly how much to move my leg out of the way when walking from the sink to the counter to avoid hitting the dishwasher, jutting out when it's open.
-eavesdropping at the top of the first staircase, unseen but hanging on to every word that my family says about various things, hilarious and otherwise.
-how my house is always the perfect temperature, no matter the temperature outside.
-the smell of my house after a long trip. Each house has one, right?
-my room, the biggest bedroom in the house.
-my DVD and book collection, always there for me to admire and squeal at. (Yeah, it makes me that happy.)
-going downstairs after all the lights have been turned off, opening and closing drawers carefully and slowly so not to make the slightest sound and getting myself something to eat or drink.
-the hours I stay up in my room, truly alone in a sense, since everyone else is in a different world: sleep. Those hours have been both some of my best and some of my worst.
-the calm, quiet nights of Palo Alto.
-Mitchell Park at 5 in the winter, 8:30 in the summer, whatever time the sun starts to transform my part of the world, when I go to the library, passing the kids enjoying the best years of their lives, wishing so much I could be one of them.
-my mattress. It's nothing fancy, but I find it the most comfortable mattress in the world. No Tempur-Pedic for me. It also beats those ones for king-sized beds with the springs inside by far.
-Fresh Choice, so familiar, I always know what to expect.
-M2 at Cubberley, where a lot of memories happened.
-the tens of dolls perched on the edge the top of walls (hard to explain) from all around the world, overlooking the kitchen and living room.
-lazy weekends in which I stay in my pajamas and don't shower
Maybe I'll continue this list later. I put in some Palo-Alto-in-general things that I'll miss.
  
Just to let you know (I don't know who I'm addressing when I say "you"...) I am going to transfer all the entries I write until August to my July file of writing. Since I don't have any due to an orchestra tour/a road trip, I haven't been writing regularly like I have (for the most part) since January to honor my new years resolution. My July document is empty and that worries me because the month is almost over. Which is why I plan to write here everyday, not all of it relevant or insightful, just to have something to read, anything to avoid a gap in my writing year. (Like a lot of cultures have a lunar year, I have a writing year. I like that.)
  
Rule number 2
Don't be a fool
Rule number 3
Get up off your knees
Rule number 4
Open your door
Rule number 5
Keep it alive
Rule number 6
Don't be pricks
And rule number 8
Don't leave it too late
Rule number 9
Just take your time
Rule number 1
Carpe Diem
-Rule No 2 Y, Damien Rice, bolded my favorites. |
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